Nope, no green beer for me. Not gonna happen. Just gotta make it through today while everyone is talking about celebrating and partying until tomorrow morning when people have to go to work hungover and it won't seem so appealing. Not appealing at all. I mean what kind of fun is it to just get stupid and then black out and not remember the party anyway? Nope, wouldn't want to do that. *sigh*
Now, you might think that's a bunch of malarkey, and you're right. St. Patrick's Day is one of the hardest days for me to want to stay sober. There are times of the year (like New Year's) when it's harder than others. I mean, it's easier to avoid a situation than a holiday. I don't go into bars, I even try to avoid going down the wine aisle in the grocery store. I don't hang out with people when they are drinking. I have a lot of support for my sobriety and I live in a "dry" household. But, I have alcoholism in the genes on my Dad's side of the family. And anyway, St. Patrick's Day is, let's face it, a drinking holiday like no other.
In college we joked that it wasn't "peer pressure" but "beer pressure." I mean, St. Patrick's Day was the one day to see just how drunk you could get and hopefully, not die of alcohol poisoning. Since I've been sober (10 shamrocks, so far) I've always felt left behind by the world on St. Patrick's Day. Now, my Dad, earlier on, had tried to warn me just to have a "wee drop" so that you could always drink a little, but he was too late. It may have been too late when I was born. I can honestly say that I do not understand drinking for taste, or some kind of light effervescent feeling. I don't even get why people drink who don't want a buzz - and that means as big a buzz as you can get. Yes, smashed, wasted, blotto, it's all the same. There is but one goal.
I do other things to celebrate holidays that don't involve drinking (as I write I'm wearing my green and listening to traditional Irish music on Pandora) and we're planning cabbage and potatoes with dinner. I even got myself a green-looking fruit drink so I could feel like I had a "green drink." But maybe no day of the year is as hard to get through sober as this one.
If you're struggling to stay sober today, know that you're not alone in the world. With a little bit of luck and whole lot of willpower you'll make it. If you feel you need some support check here for a local AA chapter meeting. You can take it moment by moment if you have to. And if you're on psych meds, remember that drinking is just out because self-medicating will mess with your brain chemistry.
So, here's me wishing you blessings for sobriety today if you need to be sober and otherwise, please be careful and safe! Happy St. Patrick's Day!