The vernal equinox is especially special to me these days, because it falls on March 20th, which is my halfway point around a year of sobriety. My sobriety benchmark is September 20th, 2002. (Yes, knowing the beginning of spring marks half a year clean and sober does help me get through St. Patrick's Day.)
Last fall, my family made a special point of celebrating my 10 year anniversary. I keep saying that I'm looking forward to 12 years sober, because then I'll be sober as long as I was using. But truly, every moment counts.
In case your wondering, I did not succeed in my first attempt to get sober - it took many tries. Once I lasted for eight months before I caved to impulse. In fact, it took 30 days of a hospital setting for me to finally detox. I really had a lot of support.
If you're reading this, and you're struggling to stay sober, just don't give up! If you fall off the wagon you can get right back on. Ask for help. Join support groups. Stay away from people and places that tempt you to indulge. Remember it's never to late to get clean and it's worth it! Your life is worth it! Self-medicating only makes things worse and it doesn't solve any problems. And remember, if you're on meds using at all is dangerous.
I want to give a shout out here to all the people (family, friends, social workers, peers) who have helped me get this far. I couldn't have done it without you! If you feel alone, know that you are not - there are a lot of people out there who want to help. All you need to do is ask.